where's the remote?

I have to admit.. sometimes I feel like I'm watching my life rather then actually living it. I go to amazing places, I meet amazing people and like most people of my generation(I hope) I spend an unhealthy amount of time watching myself on facebook.

Do I think what I am doing is right? No.. but then I don't have a normal life?? I have a full time job as a flight attendant, have a great group of friends but not in one city or country, a "stable" family but then when I really look at what I do and I mean REALLY observe my situation in comparison to someone who is "normal" well then I realise I'm not.

I'm 27, (EEK!!) Female, yet probably pass between 21-24 I'm petite, blonde , with straight hair yet I frequently try to make curly or at least bohemian, I have blue eyes with long lashes but not much volume, high cheeks in a baby fat face, my cup size is an "a" chest I wish was larger (like my cousins who have hd reductions - !!) but that I push up with Victoria's secret bra's and I think I smile too much but I hardly look like a bimbo despite that description. There's def an awkwardness that comes with me but I would be lying if I was to say men didn't find me attractive. I'm never comfortable with this but I accept it - and don't think this makes me in any way out of reach in fact - it doesn't at all.. I don'r understand the attention but more so because despite the attention that comes the times I hope for something real I get summerised in a completely different way that again brings me back to watching my life, myself online and wondering when does it become real.